Thursday, March 8, 2012

List Four: Mid-Life Crisis Options??

Jobs I’d Be Good At


1. Teacher

2. Nurse

3. Occupational Therapist

4. Writer/Journalist

5. Photographer (dreamed of working for National geographic as a kid)

6. Retail. I’d pick a bookstore, scrapbook/craft store or gifty store.

7. Vet

8. Poineer. I totally could have lived 100+ years ago.

List Three: Jobs I"ve had

1. Babysitter. I loved doing this job throughout middle and high school. The kids I watched are now old enough to babysit my kids! (sheesh! you'd think I was OLD or something!)

2. Odd jobber for my parents and for others. I got paid to do painting (interior and exterior) and yard work.

3. For two summers I worked as a Historical Interpreter. One summer @ the Ukrainian Cultural Heritage Village and one summer @ Fort Edmonton Park. I got to dress up in costumes from various eras, portray various personalities and share certain aspects of history with tourists and school groups. I loved these two summers.

4. Program Facilitator. Worked for an awesome organization in Calgary that provided recreational opportunities for adults with disabilities. It was a really fun opportunity to meet many people with all kinds of abilities/disabilities/ personalities and to help me get to know the city better.

5. Camp Counsellor. For the same org. as above. They run a fantastic summer day camp program. I loved it! (well, not the pay, but the rest for sure!)

6. Classroom Aide. I worked in an early intervention private pre-school in Calgary. Really set the tone for my passion for special ed, inclusive ed, adaptive learning opportunities. My first time working with kids with disabilities. Each one of them melted my heart on a daily basis.

7. Job Coach. In High River/Okotoks, helping adults with disabilities to maintain employment in the community. I helped people who were among other things, restaurant dish washers, newspaper deliverers, recyclers.

8. Outreach Worker. This was my most fulfilling job. This is where I truly felt important (I had my own office! I was middle-management! I was one of only a few university grads working for the company. I was actually USING what I’d learned in school!) I managed a caseload of 15-20 adults with a wide range of disabilities. I did such a wide range of tasks that it was never boring, sometimes dangerous and almost always what I wanted to be doing. I was on the path to manager. The managers and exec. Director had big plans for me. I had big plans for me! Then I got preggo…and moved back to Saskatchewan….

9. Mamma. This job is a lot more difficult and thankless than I ever imagined, but I love my kids so much!

10. Preschool Teacher. This was a very cool job. I worked alongside an amazing woman and truly enjoyed all the thinking, planning and playing that this job required. However it required so much of all 3, that I just didn’t have enough in the tank at the end of the day to give to my own kids. I had to resign after only one year. It’s been hard letting go. I WILL do this again sometime, maybe once the kids are older.

11. Teacher’s Aide/Educational Assistant. This was another job I could see myself doing as a career once the kids are older. As a sub I worked in all the different divisions with a ton of interesting kids and equally interesting teachers!

12. Farmer. I am not a just farmer’s wife. I AM a farmer. I drive the tractor, I make the bales, I check/feed/care for the animals, I keep the records, I have a say in the decisions.

List 2: Lucky Me

I’m Lucky Because….


1. I have 3 beautiful healthy kids. I have never known the heartache of losing a child, or spending months in a hospital ward praying for my child. Nor have I had to endure the months (years) of infertility that some couples do…

2. I have a huge support network close by me. I have family, friends and family friends who I can count on to help out, who support me and quietly cheer for me. Many people live across the country/world from their closest supports. Many people have no one.

3. I am married to someone who loves me no matter what. Despite all my quirks, craziness, and challenges he’s always there for me. While our “love languages” may not be the same, and he may ‘pick my ass’ a lot, I know that he just wants me to be the best I can be and I appreciate that.

List One: Favorite Places

1. The Shower. I love how the only thing I can hear is the water. The chaos of my house fades away for a few minutes. It’s a relaxing place where I can do some thinking with a clear head, or not think at all!

2. My Bed. Lately sleep has been my friend. I love the soft warmth of my blankets. I love when I’m alone and have the whole bed to myself. I love when Dan’s home to share it with me. I love when it’s full of my wiggly, giggly, snuggly kids!

3. A Pasture. I love being outside. Following a trail made by cows, horses or wildlife. Looking at the wildflowers, plants, trees, weeds….I also really love my cows. I love getting to know them; spending time around them just makes me happy.

4. The Foothills of Alberta. I absolutely love looking west and seeing the mountains! There is something almost magical about seeing those big snow-capped rocks on the horizon. I wish I could see them from Saskatchewan…..

5. The Mountains. They really are incredible. Being right in the thick of them is captivating.

6. Nashville.

7. Denmark. I have been there twice and need to go back. I have a lot of cousins there< and a strong connection to the country.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Nerd Listography.

So I totally stim on lists. I make daily lists of tasks I need to do, weekly lists to build my daily ones off of, monthly "big picture" lists, "someday lists", throughout each pregnancy I made several dozen name lists, and on and on.... so while creeping other people's blogs the other day I found a woman who made a list challenge for her and 2 blogger friends. They made a LIST of 52 list topics and each Friday they all made a list from the same topic. It stems from a Listography Journal that you can buy. So, while I can't commit to being on here every Friday, I do want to do this, so for each quarter of the year (3 months...) I've made a LIST of 10 lists I want to blog. If any of my friends want to join in the fun...feel free to! (I'd love to read others lists) Stay tuned for my completed lists! LOL

So here's my list of lists for Jan, Feb, Mar.
Favorite Places
I'm Lucky Because
Times I've Had an Audience
Jobs I've Had
Jobs I'd Be Good At
Things I Don't Like
Travel Wishes
Things I Like to Wear
Things That Inspire Me
Things That Annoy Me
Scars

one little word (ok two...)

I enjoy the concept of the One Little Word. Check out Ali Edwards for more info on this idea. I like having a word of two to keep coming back to as the year goes on. A word/definition/idea/goal to try and shape my life and year around. This year's one little word(s) are FAITH and FRESH.

FAITH - Increase and strengthen my relationship with God. Attend church more. Go to the church that gives me what I need (spritual guidance). Read the Bible daily (weekly?) Learn how to pray. Be baptized with Dane. Believe. Find peace.

FRESH - A fresh start. A new chapter in my life. LIVING life without mom, not mourning the life I lost, or fearing/avoiding the new part. Keeping the house clean and fresh (free from clutter). Focus on more "me" timeto feel and look refeshed/pretty/and "with it". A year with more fresh air, fresh smiles and more peace(?)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Christmas Fears....

Two months to go....
Christmas this year will be different. The first Christmas without my mom. It makes me very sad thinking about it. She loved the presents and the cookies and the big family suppers.
Kayla and I tried to do the gift draw like we've done for years. Mom & Dad, Me & Dan, K & Dave. Each must buy for one person. $100 gift. No getting your spouse to do the shopping for you. (a rule for the boys mostly...) This year we decided not to do it. Just didn't feel right. It made me think of last Christmas. Dan had mom's name. He brought her a big bouquet of flowers. So perfect and bittersweet. She always joked with him that she'd expect flowers @ the home once a week...
Last Christmas was as special as it could be. We booked a board room on 5A and ordered a huge pizza from the cafeteria. Mom was well enough to come down in a wheelchair and open some presents with the kids. Her emotions were fried by then, so its hard to tell if she enjoyed it - but i think she did. i was her last time interacting with her grandkids.
Plans for this year are still up in the air and stressing me out already. Kayla will not be coming home. It's their year to stay in Medicine Hat with Dave's family. We have no idea what Dad and his "roommate" Jo-Anne will be doing.
*Will they have separate celebrations with thier families?
*Will dad go with her to Saskatoon?
*Will she stay here?
*Will her family come down here?
 Right now, for me. I hope they both go to saskatoon or else have separate christmases with their families.
-I don't want to do it with her family down here, as if we're some big happy blended family!
-If she stays here, she won't be welcome @ a Shier family gathering - so it would just be us and them - which would be painfully awkward and boring and not something we want to do.
-If dad goes with her to Saskatoon he won't be missed. (what a terrible thing to say - but it's kinda true)
-I'd like to celebrate with the Shier's (like we do every year) They are our closest family, they are fun, and will be missing her just like us.
- Another option is for us to pack up and go to Edmonton to spend Christmas with Dan's family. Might be alright, but will be overshadowed by sadness, as Dan's cousin passed away this summer and everyone will be mourning/missing him. (instead of mom...)
-yet another option is to go on a "holiday" just the 5 of us. Hotel, Swimming, Pizza, Fun. That'd be a good one too!
I know it's 2 months away and I have lots of things to worry about/get through before then, but it is always there bouncing around in my mind.
But wherever it is, whoever it's with, we just have to remember to say Happy Birthday to Baby Jesus and be thankful for all the good in our lives.