Friday, October 5, 2012

Fifty Facts Friday

1. I'm a running newbie, and love it!
2. I'm a ginger...
3. This week is the first time in 5 years I've had high-speed internet in my house (dial-up days are over!)
4. This week is the first time since July that I've had a computer in the house
5. I love hot showers and could stay in one for hours (by "stay" I mean hide, and by "hours" i mean all damn day)
6. I live a half hour from the US border but have only been 'across the line' 3 times in the past 5 years
7. I am a Post Partum Depression survivor.
8. "Regular" Depression still haunts my life. I hate when he comes to visit, but he seems to insist on regular visits.
9. I drive past my mom's grave at least twice a day, yet have only "visited" 3 times in 22 months.
10. I love hanging clothes on the line to dry. My favorite chore.
11. I ALWAYS thought I'd have 4 kids, but think that my sanity is maxed with the 3 I have.
12. I love thinking up names for things. Kids, Animals (registered names, call names for these reg. names), ect...
13. I'm a helper.
14. Right now on our "home quarter" you will find: 4 bulls - Ace, Eddy, Johnny and one-yet-to-be-named (just arrived last night). 10 horses - Abby, Bay, Cash, Junior, Bert, Diego, Mac, Ice, Taco and Memphis. 2 dogs - MoxxieMae and Meg (neighbours dog that basically lives here) 3 cats with names - Jewel, Rorie, Speedy and at least 12 kittens with no names. (as a cat you have to survive your first year before you get a name around here...)
15. I love to scrapbook but seem to only get to do it a few days each year
16. I'm addicted to Pinterest
17. Our 4 year old tractor has 1300 hours on it, 1100+ of  which I have put on it. I'm pretty proud of this.
18. I am on a quest to lose weight, but it has been elusive so far.
19. I'm not an adventurous eater, that is, most healthy foods and "ethnic" foods scare me. (I'm a steak and potatoes, chips and dip kind of girl)
20. perhaps 50 facts is a bit ambitious... running out of random crap to tell you....
21. I want to both cry and do a happy dance every time my Kindergartener gets on the school bus.
22. I've been to Europe 5 times
23. I lived in the same house for the first 18 years of my life
24. From 18-21 moved 6 times.
25. I have 2 diplomas and a Certifiacate from colleges, but I wish I had a degree
26. I miss the mountains
27. I think Cancer Sucks
28. I have the very best friends in the world. They bring out the best in me and are always there for me!
29. I have  commitment issues.
30. I keep track of my life via a huge calendar on the fridge and a notebook where I write EVERYTHING!
31. I love to colour. Even have my own colouring bpook that the kids can't use!
32. Batman is my favorite.
33. I miss being a preschool teacher. It gave me a good excuse to nerd out!
34. My first "kids" were dogs. D was a border collie. Had her for 6 months, Rico was a Basset Hound Had him for 8 years and Lily was a Cardigan Corgi. We had her for 6 1/2 years.
35. Rico was trained in agility. I regret not trialing with him when we lived in calgary.
36. I wish this blog was cooler
37. I find 78% of vegatables unappetizing
38. I love creeping other blogs.
39. My tractor is a mini-van.
40. I was 18 when im got my ears peirced for the 1st (only) time
41. My house doesn't have a furnace
42. I'm parnoid that our house will burn down
43. I love being outside at night.
44. I love canoeing but hardly ever do it
45. The closest I've ever come to doing drugs was being unexpectedly hotboxed in a car with my cousin and his friend when I was in 9th grade.
46. I smoked for a week.
47. I might (almost) be happy for the first time in years. and it's weird.
48. I think that I'm cooler than I look
49. I (still) love Joe Sakic (retired pro hockey player)
50.  I love reading stories to kids.

wow i did it! that was hard!
and you did it, I'm sure it wasn't easy for you either!

many more posts to come in the next few days. i have a bunch started in my head and my notebook...

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Resting in Peace

The other day a group of friends went on a road trip. Trixxi & Big Lexy, Techno-Pastor, his bubbly-prude wife & FlowerPot, Auntie Red and GeoJimmy all crammed into a stylin 4Runner and headed west and south – to the sticks, and to where another dear friend’s body is resting peacefully. The beast that is cancer took over our friend Megs’ body and took her from the world 4 months ago…. And about 50 years too soon!!!

This was the first time we’d all been together for the trek to Overland. GeoJimmy, the only who’s ever been to visit, drove and gave us a fascinating tour of his old stomping grounds. We traveled along some dodgy pavement, hilly/rollercoaster gravel roads, wide open prairie, and a back trail but finally reached our destination. Armed with a bouquet of purple plastic flower, potted in our last French Vanilla Cappuccino mix can, we all took a deep breath and headed to the center of Overland Cemetery. The sun was shining, the wind was blowing a perfect breeze through the long grass and wheat fields that border this hill top sanctuary. We were silent for a long time. Quiet tears streaming down all our cheeks. We miss her. Everyday. She was a strong, passionate woman who lived life and fought right to the end. Coffees and hanging out just aren’t the same without her laugh, opinions, and her “insider” gossip! Overland is the perfect spot for her body to rest. And I could feel her energy there with us that day.

There was a lot of energy in the air. I wondered around the fenced space, reading the headstones and name plates and giving silent respect/mourning all those who are buried in that land. I was struck by how many children were in there. Infants with no names, 6 months, 2 years, 8 years. I said a silent prayer of thankfulness that I have not known this type of heartbreak. Thought of my 3 beautiful kids and what it would be like to have one of them die. I’m fascinated by the early ‘pioneer’ days, and have often thought I could have lived in that era. But the all too common death of children is a painful, scary thought.

I have a type of fascination with cemeteries. Reading the headstones – I love the names, doing the math of how old they were, imagining what type of life they may have had. The variety in markers is interesting too. Telling of the era, the beliefs of the deceased and their family that was left to mourn. I have a bit of a fantasy of traveling the country/world photographing cemeteries and headstones… somber, creepy, peaceful…

GeoJimmy took us to another small country cemetery on our journey home. This one, home to the teeny body of an angel-baby. Sweet Gabriel was a heartbreaking loss. His death was caused by the same horrible cancer that stole his mom from us. I mourn the loss of this little friend we never knew, but take comfort that he is in heaven and Grandma Lene rocked him and soothed him for the year before his mommy could come to him. (and hope megs still lets Gramma Lene have a few snuggles!)

If I can find my way, I will be back to both resting places. To sit and feel the energy, listen to the wind, and shed tears of sadness but also of incredible gratitude for all that I have and all that I know/have known….

Sunday, July 15, 2012

My Bedside Table is starting to resemble a library!!

Stacked on/around the small table which also hold a lamp, alarm clock, Kleenex box, cell charger and lotion is: 5 magazines – Running: Trail Special, Self: June, Cdn Family: Summer, Cdn Running: May/June, Women’s Running: May/June

And 8 books, yes E.I.G.H.T. !

-Born Wicked by Jessica Spotswood. 1st in a series. Young Adult Fiction. Follows the lives of young witches in America during the time of the witch trials. Impulse buy @ Wal-Mart last month.

- The Rainy Day Book. A Hallmark gift book of quotes, lyrics and stories to “pick you up when you’re a little blue” Another impulse buy from Hender’s Drugs in April.

-I Know This Much Is True by Wally Lamb. Loved ‘She’s Come Undone’ by W.L. so really want to read this one, started it a few times but hasn’t made it back to the top of my pile. Bought at a garage sale over 3 years ago.

-This Isn’t What I Expected – Over Coming Postpartum Depression by K. Klienman and Y. Raskin. Just browsed this one a few times, as this is a journey I have been traveling for 5 years. It’s a textbook type of read. Bought at the thrift store before Christmas.

-Icy Sparks by Gwyn Hyman-Rubio. No idea where it came from and I haven’t cracked into it yet. Jacket looks interesting and it’s an Oprah book club book, so it has to be good, right? Probably should go back to my library to reduce clutter…

-The Memory Keepers Daughter by Kim Edwards. I’m about 3 chapters into this one. Interesting, but can’t get to it. Has been collecting dust on bedside table since at least December. Another book of unknown origins, thrift store or garage sale…

-Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom. Started this in March and about 2/3 done it. It’s a true story about a rabbi who asked Albom to write his eulogy and the stories/life lessons he learned from the remarkable man he calls Reb. Will likely finish this one soon. Bought in Parmasave in 2011.

-Busy Mom Bible. Truthfully, I haven’t done as much reading in here as I would like to. It’s a wonderfully set up study/reflection bible. It’s broken down into manageable sections and questions/discussions that a busy mom can (and should) relate to, reflect on, and pray about.

I love books. I love to read. But I don’t read nearly enough. Need to fit more reading time into my crammed schedule. If I write it on my calendar/list and make it a priority I will do it. (and I should)

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

where would i live if i didn't live here???

Recently, a friend was joking (I hope!) about moving to Drum-Hellcat, Alberta. This got me thinking about where I would move to. I have no plans to leave my current farm, hometown or the great green province I love, but just for fun, for the sake of letting my imagination wander on a hot day, I’ve made a list of places I would live.

Abroad: Denmark. My Grandpa’s home land and a place I feel a great connection to. Any town there would work for me. Plus living there would force me to learn the language, something I’ve always wanted to do (see future post on bucket list…)

The UK. A man with an Irish accent can knock me to my knees. I’m fascinated my Scotland (I think it’s the ginger in my hair…) and I’ve been to England several times and am in love with the quaint countryside and fairy tale castles.

Domestically: Alberta. Specifically the foothills, somewhere south of Calgary, where I could see the mountains everyday. I love the mountains.

Town Envy: there’s a few small towns/cities I’ve been to that made me think “hey, I could live here!” Camrose, AB; Lacombe, AB; Moosomin, SK; Mount Forest, ON; Guelph, ON; Souris, MB;

Saturday, July 7, 2012

June Round Up

Alrighty, let’s try this… I feel like I should have been taking notes throughout the month, maybe for July. But I’ll look at the calendar and my camera and try to remember everything that happened. This month flew by! As Bud would say it went by “faster than a cucumber in an ice cube” lol He’s big on synonyms, but his almost 5 yr old brain doesn’t quite get it…

Read: - the Oxbow Herald (local weekly newspaper)
- other mail; flyers, bills, Western Producer
- bedtime stories to Bud, Toodles and Tuff (nn in prgress...)
- my lists and calendar to keep me on track
- browsed magazines; western horseman, self, running, Canadian running, women’s running, today’s parent, chatelaine, Canadian living, Canadian geographic,
- my favorite blogs (see future post re: blogs I follow)

Learned: - Horsemanship techniques. We hosted John and Jamie Tilley from Tilley’s Custom Colts for a 2 day horsemanship clinic @ our arena. It was an awesome weekend and I learned SOOOO much!
- Re-learned my way around Edmonton. It’s been 10 years since I 1st lived there and 2 yrs since the last time I’ve been there. It was the first city I ever learned to drive in. It took a bit but after a week of being there it felt like I’d never left!
-A bunch about Kindergarten – Had Bud’s Orientation Day this month. Gulp!

Entertainment and Fun with Family & Friends are combined this month: The kids and I headed out on a trip of near epic proportions: It started on a Thrusday. I packed the truck and 2 of the 3 kids and headed west. (Bud stayed behind with his dad.) We made it as far as Auntie Pennie’s place. It was a great place to stretch our legs, scare some cats and give The Voice some quality baby-fever time. The next morning we were up bright and early. We headed north to K’s place. Toodles, Tuff and I were on the “Relay for Life” team Cancer Sucks! with her. It’s a 12 hour walk in support of cancer research. We walked in memory of all the people who cancer has taken away or who are fighting against the beast. Cancer has touched my family over the past 10 years, most deeply in the past 2. I walked in memory of my Grandma Murph (liver cancer, 2000), DT’s Grandpa (lung cancer, 2007), my mommy (brain cancer, 2011), my friend megs (lung cancer, 2012) and in celebration of survivors like DT’s mom (thyroid cancer, 2006) and a one-nut wonder of a cowboy (testicular cancer, 2007). After this marathon of walking and emotions we slept for a few hours and then headed to a rodeo near by to meet up with DT and Bud. The next day myself and all 3 of my monkeys, along with Auntie K and Chunk headed towards the mountains and the big city of Calgary. We did the zoo (penguins were Sooo cool!), went swimming in the hotel pool (first time swimming for both Chunk and Tuff) and some shopping. After 2 fun days in the city I used to call home we said bu-bye to K and Chunk and headed north to E-Town and the Tober family. Fun in Ed included: The Sea Lion show @ WEM with Papa, 2 different times at Galaxyland @ WEM with papa, grandma G and auntie A, Lunch with Levangs @ Derrick Club, Jurassic Forest with grandma G and great grandma D, Schmidt-Knudsen Farm Visit, 90th b-day bash for great grandma D, backyard BBQ with some of the Greater Edmonton Area Tober fam. Other entertainment this month (non trip related) included swimming at town pool with Moir friends and Farm Auction Sale with lots of fun finds!

Gfts received - maybe. can't remember, sounds ungreatful, but really my brain is a mushed banana....

Gifts Given: a baby gift for newborn Baby Katie – got her 2 of our favorite board books (barnyard dance and on the night you were born) and a super cute peacock car seat/stroller toy.

Since we spent more time in the city than I do in 3 months there was of course some ‘special’ purchases. For myself I got new running shoes, running clothes, and a LiveStrong watch/bracelet thingy for tracking my runs (distance, pace, etc), a few books from Chapters and more Starbucks than I’ve drank all year!!! (may be in withdrawal now) The big kids got super cool new lawn chairs – Camo, from the new Cabella’s store, some new books from chapters, Bud got a new cowboy hat, Toodles got a “buckin’ horse cap” (pink, sparkly AND has a bronc on it!) Can’t think of anything new and special that Tuff got.

Thankfully, no one was sick or injured this month.

My brain must be shutting down ‘cause I also can’t think of any accomplishments/disappointments or anything else noteworthy.

All in all not a bad 1st Round Up! Yee-Haw!! I will take notes for July (maybe…)

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Monthly Round-Up

Here is a list from katie @

The idea is to re-cap the month for journaling, blogging or scrapbooking ideas
Here's the list of prompts. In a perfect world I'll do this and share it with you every month, but lets face it, my world is anything buy perfect, but maybe...

1. What I've read/learned this month - books, blogs, magazines, classes, etc
2. What Entertainment was there - movies, TV shows, plays, concerts, etc
3. Fun with the Family and my Friends
4. Gifts I Gave and/or Recieved
5. Special or Unusual Purchases
6. Illnesses or Health Concerns
7. My Accomplishments
8. My Disappointments
9.Goal CheckIn. Progress towards short and long term ones
10. What else was Noteworthy?

Stay Tuned........

April, May, June List of future blog lists....

1. What I'd do with a million dollars
2. Best Desserts
3. People That I Love
4. My Quirks
5. Best Books I've Read
6. Scary Things
7. Favorite Roads
8. Things I Collect
9. Things That Are Over Rated
10. Bucket List

Stay Tuned....

Saturday, March 10, 2012

List Ten: Whatcha Lookin' At?

Times I’ve Had An Audience

1. 4-H Public Speaking. Throughout my years as a 4-H member I participated in the public speaking competitions, competing at club, district, regional and provincial levels.
2. 10.01.05 Over 200 people travelled to the tiny village of Glen Ewen to witness Dan and I exchange our wedding vows

3. Scripture readings at church. I really respect a former minister of our church and her ability to read scripture aloud like a storybook. I love listening to her read from the bible and on days when I’m asked to share scripture I wish I could do the same.

4. Playing piano as a kid. I don’t think I was ever very good at it. The whole 2 hands thinking separately was too much for my mind to handle. But I did play at recitals, competitions and at church.

5. Can’t think of any other specific ones, but there’s been lots. I’m not shy of speaking in front of people.

Niner: Scar-ey


1. Chicken Pox “circle” above my eye.

2. Two small but deep cuts on my wrist - from a feisty calf I tagged once.

3. A heart that was smashed to bits by the sudden and ugly death of my mom.

4. Stretch marks from growing 3 beautiful babies. Each pregnancy left me with new and unique marks.

5. the skin on my knee is “weird” since a childhood bike accident (Country Girl meets Edmonton Pavement)and a nasty road rash that took months to heal. (actually acqired blood poisoning from the injury and almost missed summer camp because of it!!)

Figure 8: Inspiration

Things That Inspire Me

1. Blogs and websites. I have a ton that I like to check in on to see what they’re up to. Some are written by friends/acquaintances but most are written by complete strangers who talk about issues I deal with…Parenting, Household Management, Post-Partum Depression, Run-of-the-mill Depression, Grief, Pre-School Education, etc, etc, *Coming soon* a list of blogs I follow, in hopes you will find some inspiration too*

2. Quotes. Lyrics. Words of hope and motivation.

3. Pinterest. It’s a ridiculous time waster in my life, but the things people come up with! It inspires me to be more organized, crafty and creative. I really do love it and wish I had more time to pin and read/implement the pins!

4. My friends. My very best friends are all amazing women. Each one is strong and beautiful and I aspire to be more like each of them.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Lucky Number Sleven: Tequila makes My Clothes Fall Off.....

Things I Like To Wear

1. Jeans. Especially when they are new ones in a size smaller than last time I went shopping!

2. Jewelry. I have lots of ear rings, necklaces and bracelets that I love, but mot of the time I feel like they are too fancy-schmancy for my plain life.

3. My “skinny” coat. I got it for Christmas this year from Dan and love the silhouette it give me!

List 6: Travel the World

Travel Wishes

1. New York City

2. Las Vegas

3. Disney World

4. The Maritimes

5. Texas

6. Savannah, Georgia

7. Back to Nashville

8. Back to Denmark

9. Hawaii

10. Costa Rica

The Fifth List of the First Quarter....

Things I Don’t Like

1. mice in my house

2. bats in my house

3. puking kids

4. whiney kids

5. cancer

6. hangovers

7. the distance between me and you

8. bullies and mean people

9. math.

10. bills

11. rollcoasters – real and emotional ones

12. weeds in my garden

13. most fruits, veggies and berries

14. Skinny people who’ve always been skinny (and never have had to work for it)

List Four: Mid-Life Crisis Options??

Jobs I’d Be Good At

1. Teacher

2. Nurse

3. Occupational Therapist

4. Writer/Journalist

5. Photographer (dreamed of working for National geographic as a kid)

6. Retail. I’d pick a bookstore, scrapbook/craft store or gifty store.

7. Vet

8. Poineer. I totally could have lived 100+ years ago.

List Three: Jobs I"ve had

1. Babysitter. I loved doing this job throughout middle and high school. The kids I watched are now old enough to babysit my kids! (sheesh! you'd think I was OLD or something!)

2. Odd jobber for my parents and for others. I got paid to do painting (interior and exterior) and yard work.

3. For two summers I worked as a Historical Interpreter. One summer @ the Ukrainian Cultural Heritage Village and one summer @ Fort Edmonton Park. I got to dress up in costumes from various eras, portray various personalities and share certain aspects of history with tourists and school groups. I loved these two summers.

4. Program Facilitator. Worked for an awesome organization in Calgary that provided recreational opportunities for adults with disabilities. It was a really fun opportunity to meet many people with all kinds of abilities/disabilities/ personalities and to help me get to know the city better.

5. Camp Counsellor. For the same org. as above. They run a fantastic summer day camp program. I loved it! (well, not the pay, but the rest for sure!)

6. Classroom Aide. I worked in an early intervention private pre-school in Calgary. Really set the tone for my passion for special ed, inclusive ed, adaptive learning opportunities. My first time working with kids with disabilities. Each one of them melted my heart on a daily basis.

7. Job Coach. In High River/Okotoks, helping adults with disabilities to maintain employment in the community. I helped people who were among other things, restaurant dish washers, newspaper deliverers, recyclers.

8. Outreach Worker. This was my most fulfilling job. This is where I truly felt important (I had my own office! I was middle-management! I was one of only a few university grads working for the company. I was actually USING what I’d learned in school!) I managed a caseload of 15-20 adults with a wide range of disabilities. I did such a wide range of tasks that it was never boring, sometimes dangerous and almost always what I wanted to be doing. I was on the path to manager. The managers and exec. Director had big plans for me. I had big plans for me! Then I got preggo…and moved back to Saskatchewan….

9. Mamma. This job is a lot more difficult and thankless than I ever imagined, but I love my kids so much!

10. Preschool Teacher. This was a very cool job. I worked alongside an amazing woman and truly enjoyed all the thinking, planning and playing that this job required. However it required so much of all 3, that I just didn’t have enough in the tank at the end of the day to give to my own kids. I had to resign after only one year. It’s been hard letting go. I WILL do this again sometime, maybe once the kids are older.

11. Teacher’s Aide/Educational Assistant. This was another job I could see myself doing as a career once the kids are older. As a sub I worked in all the different divisions with a ton of interesting kids and equally interesting teachers!

12. Farmer. I am not a just farmer’s wife. I AM a farmer. I drive the tractor, I make the bales, I check/feed/care for the animals, I keep the records, I have a say in the decisions.

List 2: Lucky Me

I’m Lucky Because….

1. I have 3 beautiful healthy kids. I have never known the heartache of losing a child, or spending months in a hospital ward praying for my child. Nor have I had to endure the months (years) of infertility that some couples do…

2. I have a huge support network close by me. I have family, friends and family friends who I can count on to help out, who support me and quietly cheer for me. Many people live across the country/world from their closest supports. Many people have no one.

3. I am married to someone who loves me no matter what. Despite all my quirks, craziness, and challenges he’s always there for me. While our “love languages” may not be the same, and he may ‘pick my ass’ a lot, I know that he just wants me to be the best I can be and I appreciate that.

List One: Favorite Places

1. The Shower. I love how the only thing I can hear is the water. The chaos of my house fades away for a few minutes. It’s a relaxing place where I can do some thinking with a clear head, or not think at all!

2. My Bed. Lately sleep has been my friend. I love the soft warmth of my blankets. I love when I’m alone and have the whole bed to myself. I love when Dan’s home to share it with me. I love when it’s full of my wiggly, giggly, snuggly kids!

3. A Pasture. I love being outside. Following a trail made by cows, horses or wildlife. Looking at the wildflowers, plants, trees, weeds….I also really love my cows. I love getting to know them; spending time around them just makes me happy.

4. The Foothills of Alberta. I absolutely love looking west and seeing the mountains! There is something almost magical about seeing those big snow-capped rocks on the horizon. I wish I could see them from Saskatchewan…..

5. The Mountains. They really are incredible. Being right in the thick of them is captivating.

6. Nashville.

7. Denmark. I have been there twice and need to go back. I have a lot of cousins there< and a strong connection to the country.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Nerd Listography.

So I totally stim on lists. I make daily lists of tasks I need to do, weekly lists to build my daily ones off of, monthly "big picture" lists, "someday lists", throughout each pregnancy I made several dozen name lists, and on and on.... so while creeping other people's blogs the other day I found a woman who made a list challenge for her and 2 blogger friends. They made a LIST of 52 list topics and each Friday they all made a list from the same topic. It stems from a Listography Journal that you can buy. So, while I can't commit to being on here every Friday, I do want to do this, so for each quarter of the year (3 months...) I've made a LIST of 10 lists I want to blog. If any of my friends want to join in the fun...feel free to! (I'd love to read others lists) Stay tuned for my completed lists! LOL

So here's my list of lists for Jan, Feb, Mar.
Favorite Places
I'm Lucky Because
Times I've Had an Audience
Jobs I've Had
Jobs I'd Be Good At
Things I Don't Like
Travel Wishes
Things I Like to Wear
Things That Inspire Me
Things That Annoy Me

one little word (ok two...)

I enjoy the concept of the One Little Word. Check out Ali Edwards for more info on this idea. I like having a word of two to keep coming back to as the year goes on. A word/definition/idea/goal to try and shape my life and year around. This year's one little word(s) are FAITH and FRESH.

FAITH - Increase and strengthen my relationship with God. Attend church more. Go to the church that gives me what I need (spritual guidance). Read the Bible daily (weekly?) Learn how to pray. Be baptized with Dane. Believe. Find peace.

FRESH - A fresh start. A new chapter in my life. LIVING life without mom, not mourning the life I lost, or fearing/avoiding the new part. Keeping the house clean and fresh (free from clutter). Focus on more "me" timeto feel and look refeshed/pretty/and "with it". A year with more fresh air, fresh smiles and more peace(?)